I really, truly hate my body.

And I don't mean that in an 'I'm horrifically ugly and no one will ever love me' sense because clearly that would be incorrect. But I'm just tired of the bullshit I have to go through to pretend to be a normal person.

In the last month, my anxiety has fucked with plans, I've been depressed, my GI fuckery has been all ( Read more... )

So yesterday was kind of a wash. I napped and read (a lot of each) but that's about it. I went to the doctor's office to look into what's wrong with my foot, and discovered that it's a problem with my back (and the sciatic nerve being super-sensitive because of my back injury and a couple other things). So that's always fun. But by the time I got ( Read more... )

I've been trying to make some changes in my life, and I've decided that the big changes are going to be things that I'm going to do all at once, since I've read a few times that that's actually the more likely way to have things stick, instead of gradually introducing them.

[Under here because I have no idea how many of you will care at all, it's mostly for my own reference]- Really need to go to the doctor. Worried that what I thought was a ( Read more... )

I am coming to properly realize that self-esteem and body image problems are not affected nearly as much by knowing that people genuinely find me attractive as I wish they were. I wouldn't say I hate myself (especially since my self-esteem issues are almost entirely tied into body image problems and I'm pretty awesome otherwise), but I really need ( Read more... )

Why is being able to draw so damned important to me all of a sudden? I'm actually getting really, really frustrated with what I'm producing, to the point where I'm having to work off steam before bed.

Fff.

Going to put sketches up here, in case people have pointers about proportions and things. They'll always be under a cut!

[Click here for sketches from yesterday and today]


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ARGH WHY ARE LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS SO HARD

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I just want to wake up cuddled up next to him. :(

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As much as I'm whining and complaining and arguing and hating the world recently:

Life is good. :)

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I am sick and tired of comments in AMA every time I call someone out for being ableist/sexist. At first it was about being polite (which is a piss-off in and of itself because TONE ARGUMENT) but now that I'm being a good boy and trying to be polite when calling people out on their shit, I am getting an argument that 'retard' isn't offensive ( Read more... )

ugh. seasonal depression, you are kicking my ass. I have not felt this horrible in a long time - I don't know how I managed when this was the norm. At least now I know it's going to get better.

here's hoping I am not, in fact, getting sick, and that this weekend goes well. I'm really looking forward to actually sleeping Saturday night.

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